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[constellationprize]

Hi! This is ☆radia! I'm really sorry I wasn't able to answer your call... Um, if you need anything, it's fine to leave a message here! I'll answer you as soon as I can!
 

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Comments

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

As long as you don't do anything to hurt me, isn't that fine...?

[ pat pat, working her fingers in to massage at his scalp ]

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

[ uwaaa... ]

Maybe I will, you don't know.

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

If you want to do something like last time, then...

[ a pause, ]

... Um... I'm really sorry - I'm fine with it, but Luci's not, so I can't do things like that anymore...

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

[ he was just joking but

LUCIFEL

growllll... ]

Do you think I fucking care what he's fine with?

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

I do. I don't mind having things like that happen to me - even if it hurts me, that's fine as long as it makes all of you happy, but if seeing me like that hurts him, then...

... I don't want to hurt him anymore. So if I can, I don't want to get hurt anymore either.

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

Say it again. Tell me what you want.

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

I don't want to hurt him anymore...

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

Well.

[ the growling subsides and he stretches out, cuddling against her more ]

I suppose I can't argue with my witch if it's what she wants. 💖

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

[ frowns a bit, but goes back to petting him ]

I'm sorry for being selfish...

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

Happiness isn't selfish, dipshit.

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

... But it can be, can't it?

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

What, did they get you with their stupid guilt trips, too? This is hell, it literally doesn't fucking matter. Just don't betray the people you care about for your own sake and who's gonna fucking judge besides idiots?

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

[ looks down at him for a bit, but ]

Um...

... They?

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

Them.

[ lazily flops an arm towards...everywhere else. ]

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

No one's ever...

... No one's said anything like that... But it's better for a witch to think of her familiars first, right?

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

If your familiars aren't happiness they shouldn't be your familiars. You shouldn't keep things that don't make you feel good.

[ DO THESE IDOLS SPARK JOY, ARADIA? ]

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

[ YES??? ]

I love them.

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

Do you love never having anything you want?

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

... I love all of you, so I'm fine like this. I'm okay, but...

I want to try doing both from now on. If I have to choose all of you, if I have to leave those two behind... ... I can't really imagine what that'd be like. But if I'm with them, then I can learn to love you all even better than I have been, right...?

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

...How are all of us your familiars? Can you even tell me something you like about every single person here? Something they do for you? Anything you do for them?

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

I probably can't, since I probably haven't met everyone yet. I'm sure the old me could have, but I'm not really...

... We're really different... but I want to be - you all should have someone who can, shouldn't you?

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

People should only have what they're willing to take and keep and hold onto.

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

... Because "no one deserves anything?"

Re: Day 128, morning

[notadrop]

What?

Re: Day 128, morning

[constellationprize]

Luci and Doodle said it, once - ... no one really deserves things. Kindness is kind because it's not deserved or guaranteed, so giving it to everyone equally thinking that they "deserve" it isn't really kind . . .

Or something like that...