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But it - it is my fault, so...

How is it your fault?

I followed him, and I let everything happen, so -

[ getting the base started up, putting some of the liver in a pot and letting it take on a bit of a char ]

It's my fault.

So what happened to me is also my fault, huh. That's kinda harsh.

- That's not true! You didn't...

[ a pause, as if sort of recognizing his point in there ]

... It isn't the same.

What's different about it.

I - I asked him to... other than looking a little more like Luci, he didn't use any magic like you said - he didn't do anything like that, so - it's my fault.

What do you think would've happened if you'd tried to stop him?

... I don't know. He said -

If I wanted to reject him, then he said that he'd let me leave, but I didn't...

[without any hesitation]

He was lying.

[ just recoils like she's been physically injured ]

That's not - ...

He would've said anything to make us feel like shit and to hurt Ruler. And it worked, didn't it?

I felt... I was okay. I just -

I wanted to understand him more, so he helped me. There wasn't...

[ a shaky inhale, as she adds the kombu broth into the pot, mixing everything ]

... And I'm okay now too, so - it's okay, isn't it...? I just - ... because I was helping someone, I wasn't able to be with him for our anniversary, and even if I want to see him - ... even if I want to see him, I can't let him see me like this, so -

If you're going to see him, then I want you to apologize to him for me. That's...

. . . That's all.

Edited 2019-12-26 20:04 (UTC)

Dia. What did that guy do to you.

[ shakes her head

except now that she's got everything in the pot there's nothing to do but wait and talk to him, so she shuffles her feet in front of the oven, not wanting to turn and look at him ]

He didn't do anything.

Bullshit. If he didn't, you'd have no reason to avoid Ruler.

[ .............................................. ]

It's just . . .

[ another fairly lengthy pause, as she seems to be actively trying to think up a good lie ]

. . . After missing that day, and... you know, I never thought of what to give him, so - . . . I don't really know how to face him...

[ punctuated with a laugh, because she's totally ok and that's totally a thing that she does when she's ok ]

[...sigh]

I get that you don't wanna tell you. I mean, I didn't tell you either, so it's just fair. But you could just say that instead of lying.

It isn't - ...

You shouldn't be worrying about me, but it isn't really a lie either...

Uh huh.

[tears open the wrapper on a chocolate bar and takes a big bite]

... It isn't. We . . .

... Leaving him alone on that day...

I specifically told him I'd see him later that day. Obviously I didn't.

It wasn't your anniversary. That's in thirteen days.

...Wait, what? It is?

... The day that you kissed him was sixteen days after our wedding, wasn't it? I think that was when you told me about it...

... That means that, relative to today, with the way that time works here, thirteen days will make a year.

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