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Mmh. It's kinda necessary, with the ways I've changed. So what you're asking is basically if I'm okay with having changed.

[ . . .

despite the response being clear enough - context aside he can see the affirmation in her gaze, surprisingly sober even through the drink, even as it colors her cheeks and makes her limbs heavy, has her leaning further into him,

despite that - or maybe because of the wine, possibly taking a bit to cobble her thoughts together - she takes a while to really reply, stuck for a good few moments just looking at him, searching his face for something or another, trying to gauge his mood. ]

... That's right.

[...emptying his cup]

I'm still trying to figure it out.

Mm.

Then . . .

[ setting her cup down briefly to shift some in the bed - enough to grab the bottle, gesturing as if to refill his ]

... It would depend on who the person was, and the way that they were hurting people?

[holding out his cup for a refill, a little unsteadily9

Mmh. Pretty much.

If it was - ...

[ pouring very carefully, two-handed ]

... No, for me the answer is really obvious, isn't it? But - ... for him too, I think, but with Luci, for example - ... if it were someone with that sort of meaning to you...

Well, obviously I'd wanna save Ruler, right?

[drinks, spilling a bit]

Ah -

[ just kinda like

wiping up the bit of spillage with the hem of her dress it's fine ]

Even if it meant that everyone else would suffer...?

Wellllll... who knows.

... Don't you?

Hahaha. Not really.

[ smiles a little helplessly, downing what's left in her cup ]

. . . It's probably - ... probably, the same for me...

[scooches a little closer to lean on her]

Yeah? Not the same as that guy, just saving everyone no matter what?

Before, I think - . . .

[ counterleannn all but sort of flopping onto him at this point. murmured, ]

... Before, I think so, but something - . . . something strange happened, but please make sure to keep it a secret from him, okay...? But I had thought ... on the date that that boy and I went on together, even though I was able to understand, I had ended up thinking to myself that I needed to make sure that you wouldn't meet, that he needed to be kept from you as much as possible, or else I would have to - ... even though I should try no matter what, or as many as I can, like - ...

It should be more like a container of turpentine, shouldn't it? But things ended up that way instead ...

[ but she doesn't, at least in the moment, sound too put out by it, more just sort of stating it as a thing that happened ]

...I see.

[at least he thinks he does, though dia is a little hard to interpret as always]

Well, this is all hypotheticals, y'know?

[ she really just opens her mouth and makes sounds come out ]

Mm, that's right - ...

I think - ... in comparison to the way that you've ended up thinking about it, probably, it's become the same for me, but - ...

... Hypothetically, then - ... you'd choose to save that person?

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Mmhm.

[drinks more]

Ruler, or you, or Lance- I'd wanna save people I love.

... Me?

Yeah?

Mm, I was just - ... with Luci or Marnie, I had expected something like that to happen, but I wasn't really thinking about myself, or anything like that ... Even if it wouldn't be very satisfying to do, between me and the "world," if anything I had imagined . . .

... Between me and the "world," I thought that you would choose that, but that isn't ...

[ mmn

shifting to pour herself a little bit more before leaning back against him ]

. . . Principally, the relationship between you and that thing - ...

[ which is a very coherent statement to trail off on. ]

...I have no idea what you're saying.

But I love you, y'know? So...

... I love you, too.

[ leaning a little more, burying her face in his shoulder a bit ]

Mm - there was something else too, I think ...

Mm? What else?

For that boy - ... as for that boy, I ended up telling him that you were being bound up here, so I don't think that he'll come to look, but - even so, you should do your best to be careful too, okay...?

...Bound up, like literally?

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