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...Where do you want it?

Well - ...

Where do you want it to go? I think - ...

[ hmm ]

As long as it's one that I would be able to see in the mirror, and in a place that would be hidden by most of my clothing - anywhere that you'd like for it to go is fine, right?

...Ruler's got one on his arm.

Oh, that - . . .

[ he can all but physically hear her trying to think on if she's seen it or not ]

Then, do you want to put one on my arm?

It'd be cute, right? You'd match.

[ matching scars with husb (b)... as acquired by husb (c) . . . ]

That's true - wouldn't that be nice?

Should we do it right now?

Now, before we start to drink...?

[ hmm ]

If you want to get up to wash your hands and get the bandages, then it's fine to do it now, isn't it? After that, then we can relax...

If we do it after we start drinking we'll probably make a mess.

[so yeah he's going to get up and go get the stuff]

Mm. I'll wait...

[ in the meantime she'll go ahead and get everything ready in the room, grabbing a towel to lay down over the bed before setting her blouse aside and lying down on her back ]

[pretty soon he's returning, hands washed and bandages and disinfectant carried along]

You ready?

Mm. Why don't we start?

Sure.

[setting the bandages and such aside and taking out his knife]

I'm gonna make it my name, okay?

Okay. That sounds nice...

[ despite herself her arm is a little tense in anticipation of the pain; she flexes her fingers idly in an attempt to relax, curling them loose into the bedsheets. She focuses on that sensation as she does, on the softness and smoothness of the fabric, tries to count out the threads on her fingertips. One, two . . . ]

... Is your name what's written on his arm, too?

Mmhm.

[and he starts cutting, delicate curved lines going just deep enough that they'll scar

there aren't that many characters, but enough for it to be pretty unpleasant]

[ to her surprise, keeping her voice in is the easy part. not so much that she thought it would be difficult - of course she hadn't given any thought to the pain at all. but,

it's painful - even having been here so long she is not accustomed to the sensation of pain, especially without the adrenaline of a traumatic game. there is a part of her now that is compelled, almost, to relish in being able to experience the feeling at all, wants to commit the sting of each stroke to memory etched even deeper than his name - for that name, the hand that carved it and the person that owns it, but.

it does still hurt. and happy as she is to be here, easy as it is to bite back a cry on clenched teeth or her lip, the muscles of her arm aren't so compliant. despite herself she can't help but try to flinch away, but she can't have the writing ruined; gesturing with her free hand, she rasps out, ]

- Um, we - maybe ... restraining it, might be - . . .

Edited 2022-06-13 19:04 (UTC)

Oh, yeah. Good thinking.

[one curse of chains later her arm is tightly bound down to the bed, and he swiftly finishes the job after that]

[ eventually she does have to resort to cupping her free hand over her mouth, but she does make it through without her voice leaking out too much; once it's done and she's free to release her breath there's of course a while she spends just. catching it, panting,

. . . but as she does so her head just lolls off to whatever side of her he is on, smiling a little sheepishly ]

. . . Thank you... I know that it must have seemed like a strange request to hear from me, but - I'm really grateful . . .

[ and, after a pause, ]

Um, for you - ... since I ended up having you do this, is there anything that you want to have done, too?

[ what is the scarification equivalent of exchanging rings. it was her idea but she's a little out of her element ]

[going to start disinfecting the wound and bandage it up]

...I've got a scar from Ruler too. Do you wanna put one on me?

Is that really okay...?

[ but there's a pause before she adds ]

Where is it...?

[sticks out his tongue to show off the X shaped scar on it]

Oh, that - . . .

[ looks at it - then just his mouth once he rescinds his tongue - for a while, thoughtful ]

Then - ... where could something like that go...? There's -

[ ... ]

If it were on your hand, there, then ... it would definitely be a nice one then, and whenever a knife was held, then you could end up thinking of me, but ...

[ if she cut in the wrong spot, or too deeply, then it could compromise his ability to do that at all, she thinks - that she's certain she could avoid, but the bandage he'd need to wear while it healed would still limit his range of movement for a bit.

still, if not his tongue, then - ]

... Um, would something like that be okay...? Or do you think - maybe, a place like the inside of your cheek could be something nice too, couldn't it...?

Edited 2022-06-19 21:35 (UTC)

Hm, something like that could work. But it's gonna be tough to get a scar on there, isn't it? The hand would be easier.

Mm. It would be nice, but if a scar ended up building up there... it would take a lot longer than we'll have left together, wouldn't it? But, if it's your palm, then ...

[ a pause, ]

I don't really mind if anyone sees...

Is that okay?

It's totally okay by me.

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