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[constellationprize]

Hi! This is ☆radia! I'm really sorry I wasn't able to answer your call... Um, if you need anything, it's fine to leave a message here! I'll answer you as soon as I can!
 

[ for phonecalls and texts ]

Comments

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

[ pulls her knees in a little closer ]

... Then why did you say that...?

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

. . . Words are nothing without actions.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

...

[ ]

... If it happens again, then I'll go to Taisho.

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

If what happens again. . . ?

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

I'll write it down.

If this happens, after it happens - if you get hurt by someone like that again, outside of a game, then...

[ mnnn

time between resolve being established and resolve faltering: like 3 seconds ]

... No, I don't want to do anything like that either. I just want you to stay safe. I don't want to hurt or punish anyone, so I can't do a contract like that...

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

. . . That's fine.

I'm not asking you to take vengeance for me.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

I couldn't do that either. I just - ...

[ shifts her weight around a bit, shutting her eyes ]

... Can I say something selfish...?

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

. . . What is it?

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

[ mumble mumble

eventually, very very soft, per her usual as if she is kind of ashamed to say so ]

. . . I'm just scared...

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

. . .

[ . . .

moving to pat her head ]

What are you scared of?

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

Something like that happening to you again... it might not, but it's scary. But even if I say I'm worried, there's nothing I can really do but that, is there...?

[ a pause, not quite leaning into his hand yet, rolling her head against her knees ]

. . . I'm sorry. I'm really ruining our date, aren't I...

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

. . . I'm the one bringing this up in the first place.

[ headrub ]

But, that's why I'm doing this at all.

In the first place, right now - with that man knowing me, he could do anything at any time. You know?

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

Mm...

... I'm sorry. I know I'm being stupid. I agreed, so . . .

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

You're not being stupid.

[ firmly, ]

This isn't stupid, Dia-sama.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

[ shakes her head, slightly ]

But it is, isn't it? Aren't you right? I'm just worried about something that "might" happen, and then it caused all of this trouble for you...

[ . . . ]

... But it's - ... it's okay. We talked about it, so we can spend the rest of the day having fun together, right...?

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

We can, but a moment, first.

What do you think "stupid" means?

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

... Unintelligent? Or wasteful, or annoying... It's like "dumb," isn't it...?

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

None of those words can apply to this conversation.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

... Even if you say that, for me at least, isn't it all of them...?

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

Explain to me how, then.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

Didn't I...

... Even though I know it's better if everyone forgets, in comparison to the way things are now, I'm still worrying, and it's bothering you - when we should be having fun, too -

[ a pause ]

So in that order, it's unintelligent, and annoying, and wasteful, too.

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

Even if you know better, you're still worrying. Even if your mind knows it, your heart can still worry - one cannot stop the heart from feeling how it feels. It is, therefore, not unintelligent.

It doesn't bother me that you're worried. I expected this, and more than anything, you are right to worry.

... I'm worried about it, too.

With that cleared up, I think it's plain enough that this isn't wasteful, either.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

Mm...

... Okay.

[ ... ]

Do you want to put your head back down...? We're almost there, but you probably still have enough time to take a nap...

Re: day 141

[fisherofmen]

[ ruffles her hair, quiet for a moment ]

. . . Alright.

Re: day 141

[constellationprize]

[ leans into it briefly before setting her legs back down on the floor of the train,

after a moment or so of thought she's moving to kiss his mouth ]