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[constellationprize]

Hi! This is ☆radia! I'm really sorry I wasn't able to answer your call... Um, if you need anything, it's fine to leave a message here! I'll answer you as soon as I can!
 

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Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

[spreading the snacks across the kitchen table and flopping into a chair]

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

[ tying her hair back first of all and grabbing an apron and then getting on in there after her hands are washed, chopping up the monkfish


after a bit of prep time, she murmurs ]

... Um, about the favor...

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

Yeah?

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

... Can you - ... whenever you talk to him . . .

... When you talk to him, is it okay if... ... if I ask you to apologize to him for me, is that okay...?

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

...

Depends on what you want to apologise for.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

... What do you mean?

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

I mean if you want to apologise for the fact that you haven't been able to talk to him because you haven't been okay, I won't pass that on.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

[ flinches ]

- Um, that... why not...

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

Because you shouldn't apologise for something that's not your fault.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

But it - it is my fault, so...

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

How is it your fault?

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

I followed him, and I let everything happen, so -

[ getting the base started up, putting some of the liver in a pot and letting it take on a bit of a char ]

It's my fault.

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

So what happened to me is also my fault, huh. That's kinda harsh.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

- That's not true! You didn't...

[ a pause, as if sort of recognizing his point in there ]

... It isn't the same.

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

What's different about it.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

I - I asked him to... other than looking a little more like Luci, he didn't use any magic like you said - he didn't do anything like that, so - it's my fault.

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

What do you think would've happened if you'd tried to stop him?

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

... I don't know. He said -

If I wanted to reject him, then he said that he'd let me leave, but I didn't...

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

[without any hesitation]

He was lying.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

[ just recoils like she's been physically injured ]

That's not - ...

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

He would've said anything to make us feel like shit and to hurt Ruler. And it worked, didn't it?

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

I felt... I was okay. I just -

I wanted to understand him more, so he helped me. There wasn't...

[ a shaky inhale, as she adds the kombu broth into the pot, mixing everything ]

... And I'm okay now too, so - it's okay, isn't it...? I just - ... because I was helping someone, I wasn't able to be with him for our anniversary, and even if I want to see him - ... even if I want to see him, I can't let him see me like this, so -

If you're going to see him, then I want you to apologize to him for me. That's...

. . . That's all.

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

Dia. What did that guy do to you.

Re: day 185 evening

[constellationprize]

[ shakes her head

except now that she's got everything in the pot there's nothing to do but wait and talk to him, so she shuffles her feet in front of the oven, not wanting to turn and look at him ]

He didn't do anything.

Re: day 185 evening

[avestan]

Bullshit. If he didn't, you'd have no reason to avoid Ruler.