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[constellationprize]

Hi! This is ☆radia! I'm really sorry I wasn't able to answer your call... Um, if you need anything, it's fine to leave a message here! I'll answer you as soon as I can!
 

[ for phonecalls and texts ]

Comments

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

higanbana: That's nice!
higanbana: Was it particularly eventful?

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

☆radia: It was nice.

[ ☆radia is typing...




☆radia is typing...






☆radia is typing... ]

☆radia: Is it OK for me to call you?

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

[ immediately, ]

higanbana: It's always okay.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

[ there's no response for a good bit, and then

lucifel's phone begins to ring. ]

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

[ letting it ring twice before he picks it up, ]

Dia-sama.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

[ despite being the one that asked to talk, she doesn't............. say anything? for a while? there is, she believes, a key difference in the quality of his voice, the way that he says her name, that she feels herself picking up on, but her tongue nevertheless feels too heavy and thick in her mouth and her heart lodges itself tightly within her shut throat and she

doesn't get it. she didn't have a single problem while she was there, so why is it an issue now? what would you even call this sort of thing?

eventually she ekes out, soft, voice forcibly even, ]

. . . Hi. I - . . .

... I thought... because I missed everything, I thought - ... it'd be good to apologize a different way, but . . .

[ she definitely can't let him see her like this. ]

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

. . . It's alright.

[ softly, ]

Take as long as you need, Dia-sama. For now, I'm glad to just be able to speak to you like this.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

I'm -

I'm fine ... but if I can, then I - I want to see you, but I don't really want you to see me like this... . . .

... I know - you were probably really upset, weren't you...?

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

Mmm. I am upset.

[ not was - am. he speaks slowly, softly ]

That isn't your fault, however. ... It hurts more, to hear that you're fine.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

[ . . . ]

... I don't...

... You shouldn't have to worry about me. There wasn't really...

[ but if he says it hurts him she can't in confidence complete the sentence, ]

... I'm sorry.

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

I'm sorry, too.

[ wry, ]

Because, I'm still worrying about you. Even though you say I shouldn't, I am.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

So -

[ . . . ]

... I'm -

[ , ]

. . . Do you want me to come over...?

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

[ pausing, for a moment ]

. . . When you're ready, and no sooner than that.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

[ more relief in her voice than she really intends ]

... Ah...

[ and another pause, ]

Then... it's okay. We can talk like this a lot, can't we...? I'm just -

I'm just glad you're okay. And Doodle too . . . He was really worried too, so...

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

Of course we can.

[ there's a pause ]

. . . . Mmm, I know. He . . . I did a lot of horrible things, didn't I?

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

... You didn't.

He... he wouldn't tell me what happened, but I think - he was more worried about you...

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

It was "Amakusa Shirou" who hurt you.

[ pause ]

He is certainly, certainly worried about you too.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

... He didn't hurt me. I just - . . .

Towards me, at least, he ... he didn't do anything wrong.

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

Then, what did he do?

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

It was just - . . .

[ a bit distantly he can hear sheets rustling on her end, the bed creaking as she shifts a little, uncomfortable ]

. . . I wanted to understand - ... I wanted to understand him more, so he helped me.

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

. . .

[ slowly, each word heavy ]

I see.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

That's -

[ somewhat panicked, ]

That's all, so . . . it's okay, isn't it...? At least - ... if it's about me, at least, then you don't need to worry, okay...?

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

[ bitterness seeps into his tone, ]

I have to worry. I definitely, definitely have to worry.

Re: Day 189

[constellationprize]

[ s

softly, a nervous quaver to her voice ]

- Luci . . . ?

Re: Day 189

[sancrimony]

. . .

You know . . . You already know. That incident defined me, as "Amakusa Shirou". As "Lucifel", those emotions haven't gone away. If there is an "Amakusa Shirou", then undoubtedly, he has gone through the same tragedy. Even by a different name, he has.

[ softer, ]

To understand any one of us, you would first have to understand that.

Saying something like, "he just helped me understand him". . . I know. I know what that sort of thing means.